I don't know what to do now.
Are we still cool now?
Looks like we're not.
People told me, as long as you are happy, who cares whats going one behind the scene. Sigh.
But anyways, I shall be a happy girl today! :D
I will sing out praises To the One who saved me Maker of heaven and earth Nothing compares to You And the love You've given You are the King of my life
Guilty though I was my debt was paid with love and sacrifice Now I owe my life to Jesus Christ The Saving One Amazing grace has saved Unfailing love has brought me back to You My heart is surrendered
You gave me hope and freedom Take this life I give it back to You Back to You Whoa
Now I know the King of love Has saved my life, He saved my life So I live for the King of love Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ
I may be in a relationship, but I might not be happy.
I may be smiling all day along, but you don't know the kind of pain I have inside.
I may look carefree, but none knows about the problems I'm facing.
It's been 1 year, 1 week, 6 days..
Is this worth it? - I really don't know.
These really reminds me of a lot of things.
I don't know why, but these flash backs will just keep coming into my mind like a routine.
This is sad, I really have no idea if I can take it any longer.
Yeah, you are very good to me.
I've got no right to ask anything more.
Sometimes I just feel that it's best for me to be alone.
That's when I'll be really calm, and I manage my own emotions.
I don't mind keeping all my troubles inside, somethings are better to be left unsaid.
Everyday, I've been thinking and wondering to myself if this is really worth it.
Sigh. I know I shouldn't think about the past anymore.
Every single ones, had a bad ending.
You may not know, actually until today, I am still traumatized.
You maybe thinking I must be crazy. It's been years yet I'm still traumatized.
The only person that I know can understand this pain is Shihui.
I seemed fine and happy to you.. But that's diffinatly not the case.
Yes, I looked fine. That is because, I don't want my parents to worry about me.
I looked happy and cheerful. That is because I don't want you to feel bad.
I don't want you to reapproch yourself. Sometimes, I can't help it but to break down.
Many reasons behind it, but I'm not sure what exactly is the main cause that made me cry.
So don't ask me why. I really don't know how to give you a proper answer. All I can say is "I don't know." and "I'm okay, nothing is wrong."
I can really feel insure sometimes.
It seems that my emotions are not stable.
One minute, I'm genuinely happy. The next minute, I can just emo and cry like no body's bussiness.
I've been telling myself for the pass months that's is okay.
I've been telling myself, that's life.. Face it.
I've been lying to myself, I'm thinking too much.
I've been lying to myself, everything is fine.
But now I know. Everything is so not fine.
Everything is not going as planned.
I feel like I'm done. I had enough.
I've been tolerating for too long.
Every night, I've been crying myself to sleep.
I like to keep things to myself, that's why I'm dying inside.
Its really killing me day by day.
I really don't know how long more I can last.
But I know, its gonna end soon.
Everything is coming to an end.
Every single thing.
I think everything should come to an end now. Like seriously, I have to let you go. You will be happy with your CG. You will be fine.
This will happen sooner or later, might as well we do it now. 1 year plus is long enough. You gotta move on with life without me. You can pull thru de. You will find a girl better than me, a girl that worth your love. Don't waste your time on me, its useless.
I really wanna thank you for being so wonderful all these while. It is really nice knowing you.
Seriously, the I think I should give up.
I'm really gonna wash my hands of everything.
No point for me here hanging myself.
The more I expect, the more disappointed I get.
To you its alright, then be it.
I don't know how to say this but, you've changed. You're not the one that I know before. Maybe I didn't see your back side, but now I do. I'm so confused now. Is this what I wanted? I think that this is too rush. I'm sorry, but this is not what I wanted from the start.
*Big waves to you sitting in front of your monitor*
The name's Samantha.D, it's simple. I took my first breath in 1994. I shall blow off the increasing number of candles each year on Eight of January.
I am a typical schoolgirl just like you and loves to laugh.
I always turn on my radio in the night and tune in to 91.3FM!
I am a great fan of Teddy Bears esp, Pooh Bear.
Now, tell me, is it a bit too childish to like soft toys and rainbows?
They are extremely cute you know? And the greatest fear in me is flowers.
That's wired, and i know it too. I can't help it but to scream and run for my life if i come to contact with them.
And i'm happily Engaged to Mr Lau Jun Kiat
:D
The biggest baby pooh on earth A red Sony Ericsson phone New stero speaker on my study desk Chocolates and Candies Spend more time with Gfriends and Bfriend
I don't know what to do now.
Are we still cool now?
Looks like we're not.
People told me, as long as you are happy, who cares whats going one behind the scene. Sigh.
But anyways, I shall be a happy girl today! :D
I will sing out praises To the One who saved me Maker of heaven and earth Nothing compares to You And the love You've given You are the King of my life
Guilty though I was my debt was paid with love and sacrifice Now I owe my life to Jesus Christ The Saving One Amazing grace has saved Unfailing love has brought me back to You My heart is surrendered
You gave me hope and freedom Take this life I give it back to You Back to You Whoa
Now I know the King of love Has saved my life, He saved my life So I live for the King of love Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ
I may be in a relationship, but I might not be happy.
I may be smiling all day along, but you don't know the kind of pain I have inside.
I may look carefree, but none knows about the problems I'm facing.
It's been 1 year, 1 week, 6 days..
Is this worth it? - I really don't know.
These really reminds me of a lot of things.
I don't know why, but these flash backs will just keep coming into my mind like a routine.
This is sad, I really have no idea if I can take it any longer.
Yeah, you are very good to me.
I've got no right to ask anything more.
Sometimes I just feel that it's best for me to be alone.
That's when I'll be really calm, and I manage my own emotions.
I don't mind keeping all my troubles inside, somethings are better to be left unsaid.
Everyday, I've been thinking and wondering to myself if this is really worth it.
Sigh. I know I shouldn't think about the past anymore.
Every single ones, had a bad ending.
You may not know, actually until today, I am still traumatized.
You maybe thinking I must be crazy. It's been years yet I'm still traumatized.
The only person that I know can understand this pain is Shihui.
I seemed fine and happy to you.. But that's diffinatly not the case.
Yes, I looked fine. That is because, I don't want my parents to worry about me.
I looked happy and cheerful. That is because I don't want you to feel bad.
I don't want you to reapproch yourself. Sometimes, I can't help it but to break down.
Many reasons behind it, but I'm not sure what exactly is the main cause that made me cry.
So don't ask me why. I really don't know how to give you a proper answer. All I can say is "I don't know." and "I'm okay, nothing is wrong."
I can really feel insure sometimes.
It seems that my emotions are not stable.
One minute, I'm genuinely happy. The next minute, I can just emo and cry like no body's bussiness.
I've been telling myself for the pass months that's is okay.
I've been telling myself, that's life.. Face it.
I've been lying to myself, I'm thinking too much.
I've been lying to myself, everything is fine.
But now I know. Everything is so not fine.
Everything is not going as planned.
I feel like I'm done. I had enough.
I've been tolerating for too long.
Every night, I've been crying myself to sleep.
I like to keep things to myself, that's why I'm dying inside.
Its really killing me day by day.
I really don't know how long more I can last.
But I know, its gonna end soon.
Everything is coming to an end.
Every single thing.
I think everything should come to an end now. Like seriously, I have to let you go. You will be happy with your CG. You will be fine.
This will happen sooner or later, might as well we do it now. 1 year plus is long enough. You gotta move on with life without me. You can pull thru de. You will find a girl better than me, a girl that worth your love. Don't waste your time on me, its useless.
I really wanna thank you for being so wonderful all these while. It is really nice knowing you.
Seriously, the I think I should give up.
I'm really gonna wash my hands of everything.
No point for me here hanging myself.
The more I expect, the more disappointed I get.
To you its alright, then be it.
I don't know how to say this but, you've changed. You're not the one that I know before. Maybe I didn't see your back side, but now I do. I'm so confused now. Is this what I wanted? I think that this is too rush. I'm sorry, but this is not what I wanted from the start.
I've moved again! 
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*Big waves to you sitting in front of your monitor*
The name's Samantha.D, it's simple. I took my first breath in 1994. I shall blow off the increasing number of candles each year on Eight of January.
I am a typical schoolgirl just like you and loves to laugh. 
I always turn on my radio in the night and tune in to 91.3FM!
The biggest baby pooh on earth 
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